Back to reality

Well here we are again, yet another Saturday along the long road to redemption.

Its fair to say this hasn't been my most impressive week when it comes to blogging and as it turns out the same can be said for my diet. Coming off the back of last weeks great result I guess it was always going to be hard to live up to that level of expectation. Suffice to say I haven't. As I mentioned on Wednesday I've spent most of the week undoing the damage done by a weekend of over-indulgence in a somewhat misguided celebration of last weeks result.

As far as the limited blogging effort goes, I can only say I'm sorry. Two entries for the week is not up to par and I promise to pick up my game in the coming week. Alright I've delayed the inevitable long enough it's time to admit the numbers.

Current weight: 109.1kg - Previous Weight: 108kg - Gain of 1.1kg
Current Gut: 112cm - Previous Gut: 113kg - Loss of 1cm

Mmmm, not quite sure what to think about those figures. I'd hoped I could get myself back to the 108kg mark after last weekend but alas the damage was too great. Interesting that the gut seems to have shrunk a bit though so I choose to hang onto that result for the week rather than focus on the negative one. In terms of the journey this result is officially my worst result. Its the second time I've gained weight but over one kilo is a shame.

OK, time to move on and put that week behind me, after all today marks 15 weeks since I began this challenge and with 24kgs gone I am really pleased to be where I am. The next two weeks will be a serious challenge for me with a trip to Melbourne for 5 days bound to test my willpower. With a winery tour and a footy match already booked in, and multiple dinners out sure to follow I'll have to make seriously good food choices or my 9kg buffer zone may be gone in a flash.
 
I've set a short term goal to crack the 107kg mark by next Saturday which will be a very significant result. If achieved I will have lost half of my planned weight and it will be all downhill from there. It really is amazing how quickly you can forget where you've come from. I look at myself now and do see a thinner bloke but in reality I still significantly overweight and that is helping me stay focused on the ultimate goal. I think sometimes about the day late last year when I jumped on the scales and saw 137+ and I remind myself of how I felt. That great shame, even disgust at what I had become or even worse where I would go from there.

So as I sit here today I choose not to beat myself up over this weeks gain but instead remind myself of that feeling late last year compared to how I feel now. I'm sure I'll have plenty more wins and a few more losses in the coming months but I will get there, I can promise that. 

That will do for now, its all a little bit deep and reflective today and need to get to KFC for lunch. Only kidding.

Talk tomorrow (I promise)

P